TJ Maxx Employee

Tomorrow is my first official day at wor ad I am proud to say that  Will look cute. I will be nervous. I will be anxious. I will make mistakes. But I am pumped!

With 4 Minutes!

It's four till midnight but I am not worried. Tonight was fun! In-N-Out  and a lot of Spanish equals a great night with some wonderful people!

RED DEAD REDEMPTION

For those that know me pretty well, you know that I am not that big of a video gamer. However there are a few games that I love every now and then. Today I have been reintroduced to the game red deaf redemption and it is by far one of my favorite games for console.

Emotions

It's crazy the number of emotions that a person can go through within a few days. And I must say, I have experienced a whole lot these past few days. I really don't know how but I do know that I have some wonderful people in my life and I have had some great life happenings. I am grateful for my life even though there are days where I won't even lie, I get tired of some things.

Tears in Television

Without a doubt there are some tv shows that I have to watch or I feel like I missed something extremely important. Mainly I feel I missed something important because it will be all over facebook and I will be lost, but sometimes I just have to know what follows the cliff hanger.  However what does bother me a lot is when TV brings emotions out of people.

Glee. Yes, Glee, the latest episode made me a tad teary eyed. And there has definitely be some other episodes out there that definitely brought some tears to my lashes. I guess I really don't like it because shows like Glee have so many happy episodes so when a depressing one comes it is almost like a sucker punch to the tear ducts. Things like that just aren't right.

Pump up the Pep!

Tomorrow is a day that will be filled with amazingness! I am going to my first job training and I am thrilled and nervous and pumped!

Acting out of Character

I have decided that somedays I am a really good actress. Somedays I pretend I am perfectly fine and life is wonderful when all the while I am trying to force back the tears. I can say this, for a while everything was fine and dandy even though I started thinking. But ever so slowly the thinking began to take over my emotions and even some dreams.

I am not perfect, I am far from it, and I know that. There are good days and there are bad days. However for some reason I always have that twinge of guilt to admit that I feel as if I am starting to sink into bad days. I know that emotions can be kept in check but mine just seem to veer off to the bad days sometimes. I don't know why, they just do. And I know that this blog is not likely to get found so I feel ok saying it.

Today I cried, and I couldn't help it at all. My mind just went to last year, and January and next thing I know I am attempting to hide the tears from my mother. I feel as though I have to stay strong. I feel like I can't waver. I feel like I should be done having random days where my mind wanders and the tears fall. But of course, it happens. And of course I find myself stuck and not knowing what to do.