*disclaimer* I am not really back into the swing of blogging every night, my bad BUT I am trying to be a little better about it. Anyways...
So this past weekend at HPU I attended a thing called IMPACT. For those that don't know Impact, it's basically a two day focus on missions in Brownwood and the world. This was my second time getting to participate so I thought going into it I would know what was going to happen to the T. However, God doesn't work to the T all the time.
This weekend I got to go love on some girls at the TYC, which is a youth correctional facility here in Brownwood. I got to hear a beautiful testimony showing God's love and redemption from one of my favorite upperclassmen's sister. I got to worship and have fun with girls that I didn't know and that I didn't know their background but I did know that God loved each one of them. The cool thing was as soon as I got there any fears that I may have had, melted away. I didn't see them as girls who were in TYC, I saw them as girls who Christ died for and who God loves dearly even though they may have made some bad choices.
The reason I titled this blog to infinity and beyond is not only because I caught a few seconds of Toy Story today, but because that is how much love that God has for us and how much love we are to have to Him and our fellow man. Today we got to listen to a guy named
Chad Matthews, just an ordinary man who listened to God's will for his life and followed it. Chad talked to us about the work that he has been doing for the past couple of years and more importantly that we as Christians need to take a stand and start being a Christian more in our walks instead of just talk. The whole entire time that he was talking though, I am not going to lie, my mind wasn't always on the words he was saying but I felt a tugging at my heart that there was something God had planned for me to do. And right away I flipped to the only page marked in my bible which was marked by a card that was given to me by the chaplain at the TYC, which made me wonder and still makes me wonder if I am meant to be a mentor. But then the cogs in my mind started moving more and more. Last year, I had a desire and a passion to go into the Brownwood Regional Hospital and just love on people and I even told a few people but that was as far as the desire went. And while I was sitting in the chairs in Grace Chapel I started thinking how much I loved the idea of a ministry started by a few of my church and even though I don't know how it is going I thought that there needs to be one here.
After Chad finished talking Impact was officially over but everyone was invited back to the HUB to ask questions and I couldn't help but still feel as though just thinking, "there is some mission that I need to do" wasn't enough of a thought. I still didn't really know where I needed to be and what I needed to do. Partially because I have doubts and fears that I am just thinking of things I want to do. So while questions were being asked and Chad talked more about his experience living with homeless people and loving on homeless men and women, I snuck upstairs to just figure things out. When I flipped to a random page in my bible it just happened to be several passages that included talks of miracles that Jesus had done, and even a verse addressing doubt. And of course if that wasn't enough, while finishing reading some of the verses I heard the sound of sirens. Now I am not going to lie and say that I am not scared, and worried and confused of what all I will be getting myself into. However the truth is I know that this is what God wants me to do while I am here.
God wants every person to know they are loved to infinity and beyond. And I am just considering myself blessed that God is allowing me to see where I can serve him and love on others when they need to feel him the most. So any readers out there that happen to have read this far, please be praying for lots of things. Pray: for wisdom and confidence and guidance throughout this ministry and also be praying that you find where you are passionate to serve and that you plug yourself in.
