So, here goes a very uninspired blog. Sad day, most of my blogs as I sit down all of a sudden I think, "woah, I know what I am writing!" Or I just write what is on my brain/heart. However today isn't really like that. I guess a part of the lameness is due to the fact that I spent a lot of today getting ready for and helping Princeton's 15th Annual Spring Classic whoot! Yes siree gotta love it when high schoolers are discussing what is better protectionism or free trade! But honestly, I loved every minute of the tournament today, well most of it.
One of the cool things about speech and debate is the friendships that are made. Whether you become close to those that judged you in your high school years, fellow judges, or the competitors that you are judging for. I am proud that I did speech and debate in High School because it truly made me to be the person I am today. However, it also made me a very busy high schooler, and allowed me to postpone my new years resolution to which I am now typing.
Today's blog was not good in the slightest however, the day itself was pretty snazzy.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I'm Alright
So I truly don't know what implanted this song in my head, but the song of the day is without a doubt.........
Once again, I really don't know how that song got in my head truly but I do know that it is the way I am feeling. At least the song title. (and if any of the lyrics are offensive sorry I only know portions of the song, that happen to be playing repetitively in my head.)
A part of me feels guilty for feeling alright in the midst of all the crap in the world that boggs down so many people and causes so much heartache. However I have realized, that a lot of the stuff that boggs so many down, really shouldn't. Somethings that happen in life, we have no way of stopping, had no way of starting it and or no way of knowing when it will be over. I'm alright, because I know that something amazing is fixing to happen, what, I have no clue but I know it's going to be fantastic and hard. Because with all the bad things that seem to be drawing attention, God has the ability to use it for his will. Though things might not be the way we wished they were, heartbreaking situation may lead to life changing results. God is still in control, he is still on his throne, and we shouldn't forget that. I think something big spiritually and emotionally is fixing to take over Princeton, Texas. However with that, we need to realize that those stumbling blocks of our faith, shouldn't force us to stumble but realize what truly is coming, and celebrate those we've lost, and praise God even more for those still in our lives and the miracles that he has worked in lives all across the world.
One of the things that I really have been struggling with this past few weeks is thinking that it's might fault, I should've done something different, (as you could probably tell with some older blogs). But the truth of the matter is, sometimes things just are out of our hands, believe it or not our actions or lack of actions doesn't always cause terrible things. Now, I know sometime our actions causes consequences however sometimes we don't control things that happen. It's not your fault that something happens all the time that you don't like, especially, if it's natural, or happening on the other side of the world. Sometimes we as people get so wrapped up in ourselves we actually believe the world revolves around us. And the shocking thing is, IT DOES NOT! I guess this whole little paragraph is me explaining how I have come to be alright. Even though it may be a temporary realization, after all, I am human, and as I mentioned earlier we like to get wrapped up in ourselves.
I guess another reason as to why I'm alright is because I am blessed beyond what I deserve. Crazy that God has this thing called Grace and Mercy. Often times when times are hard, whether emotionally, spiritually, mentally, physically, socially, God still has our backs. However we often forget that too, and focus on what is bothering, or what is unfair, or unjust, or just plain wrong. God has never left us, and he never will.
So I'm alright, Don't nobody worry 'bout me.
A part of me feels guilty for feeling alright in the midst of all the crap in the world that boggs down so many people and causes so much heartache. However I have realized, that a lot of the stuff that boggs so many down, really shouldn't. Somethings that happen in life, we have no way of stopping, had no way of starting it and or no way of knowing when it will be over. I'm alright, because I know that something amazing is fixing to happen, what, I have no clue but I know it's going to be fantastic and hard. Because with all the bad things that seem to be drawing attention, God has the ability to use it for his will. Though things might not be the way we wished they were, heartbreaking situation may lead to life changing results. God is still in control, he is still on his throne, and we shouldn't forget that. I think something big spiritually and emotionally is fixing to take over Princeton, Texas. However with that, we need to realize that those stumbling blocks of our faith, shouldn't force us to stumble but realize what truly is coming, and celebrate those we've lost, and praise God even more for those still in our lives and the miracles that he has worked in lives all across the world.
One of the things that I really have been struggling with this past few weeks is thinking that it's might fault, I should've done something different, (as you could probably tell with some older blogs). But the truth of the matter is, sometimes things just are out of our hands, believe it or not our actions or lack of actions doesn't always cause terrible things. Now, I know sometime our actions causes consequences however sometimes we don't control things that happen. It's not your fault that something happens all the time that you don't like, especially, if it's natural, or happening on the other side of the world. Sometimes we as people get so wrapped up in ourselves we actually believe the world revolves around us. And the shocking thing is, IT DOES NOT! I guess this whole little paragraph is me explaining how I have come to be alright. Even though it may be a temporary realization, after all, I am human, and as I mentioned earlier we like to get wrapped up in ourselves.
I guess another reason as to why I'm alright is because I am blessed beyond what I deserve. Crazy that God has this thing called Grace and Mercy. Often times when times are hard, whether emotionally, spiritually, mentally, physically, socially, God still has our backs. However we often forget that too, and focus on what is bothering, or what is unfair, or unjust, or just plain wrong. God has never left us, and he never will.
So I'm alright, Don't nobody worry 'bout me.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
B-E-A-U-Tiful!
So today I was at the school because, #1 I had nothing better to do, #2 I wanted to see people, And # 3 Because I could. And in the theatre productions class at the end of the day, we started talking about appearances, and my philosophy happened to pop up. The truth is everyone is beautiful if you look at them the right way. Part of my philosophy came to be at a summer camp called Wheatstone, when we talked about beauty and how all people are made in the image of God. Now it might just be me, but just merely knowing that I am made in the image of God makes look on myself and others as having such great worth, and a dash of beauty just because of the fact that they are made in God's image.
One of the biggest reasons why I think my philosophy came into being, is because there are so many people in this world, girls and guys alike, that have such low self esteem especially when it comes to their looks. So I guess this blog stems off of today's conversation, though it was brief. Everyone has something about them that makes them attractive, and I think that it is so important to tell people that very thing. There is an epidemic of people that when they look upon themselves they fail to realize the good, but point out the bad. Now some people, do it because they seek attention but then there are those that truly can't stand their physical appearance in the slightest.
Truly I don't know why I am going on this appearance tangent, but I think it is important to make sure that people know they are beautiful. At least on the outside anyway. :) So with that I say. " Dear Reader, whoever you may be, you are beautiful! Sincerely, Me"
One of the biggest reasons why I think my philosophy came into being, is because there are so many people in this world, girls and guys alike, that have such low self esteem especially when it comes to their looks. So I guess this blog stems off of today's conversation, though it was brief. Everyone has something about them that makes them attractive, and I think that it is so important to tell people that very thing. There is an epidemic of people that when they look upon themselves they fail to realize the good, but point out the bad. Now some people, do it because they seek attention but then there are those that truly can't stand their physical appearance in the slightest.
Truly I don't know why I am going on this appearance tangent, but I think it is important to make sure that people know they are beautiful. At least on the outside anyway. :) So with that I say. " Dear Reader, whoever you may be, you are beautiful! Sincerely, Me"
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Trying to "Handle it"/ Why I dislike my brain.
The hardest part about this all, is that I don't know how to "handle it". I just wish that somehow this could be easy, but I don't think that it can be at all, especially when memories flood back into view. Some that I absolutely loved and others that I absolutely regretted. I can say one of my favorites that I definitely don't mind was one I mentioned on facebook today, him writing on my car window in the rain, those three little words that melted my heart and glued a smile on my face. But then I think about that terrible dream, the dream that I can't help but think about. The only dream that I has ever woken me up in tears. And it once again, makes me think of the times where I wanted to tell him yes with all my heart but my stupid head got in the way, filling me with doubt, insecurity, a dash of false hope, and more importantly urged me to say no three times.
Everytime that I start thinking that every little thing is gonna be ok, my brain starts working overtime, and then the tears start streaming down my face and it makes me angry. I know that this was going to happen, and I am glad it happened this way and no other way. But when I hear some phrases, my heart finally gets to take control and it feels like its going to just fall apart on the floor. It's good to hear somethings, and it's reasurring to know that what we had was real, but at the same time just realizing that... makes me feel like I made the biggest mistake three times in a row. It kept me up last night, and I am sure it's going to keep me up again and again. The truth is I should've said yes the very first time you asked, but I was to chicken. The truth is, I was really hoping there was going to be a fourth time the question was asked, because I was waiting to answer yes, and had given up on waiting until the semester finished to see if we still liked each other the same way.
Everytime that I start thinking that every little thing is gonna be ok, my brain starts working overtime, and then the tears start streaming down my face and it makes me angry. I know that this was going to happen, and I am glad it happened this way and no other way. But when I hear some phrases, my heart finally gets to take control and it feels like its going to just fall apart on the floor. It's good to hear somethings, and it's reasurring to know that what we had was real, but at the same time just realizing that... makes me feel like I made the biggest mistake three times in a row. It kept me up last night, and I am sure it's going to keep me up again and again. The truth is I should've said yes the very first time you asked, but I was to chicken. The truth is, I was really hoping there was going to be a fourth time the question was asked, because I was waiting to answer yes, and had given up on waiting until the semester finished to see if we still liked each other the same way.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Thanks for the memories
Today shall forever be remembered for so many people, because it was the day that a very funny, genuine and real loved guy went on to a better place. So this post really isn't for anyone else but to just reflect on the greatness that he impacted on so many peoples lives. I'll never forget the year 2010, it's when our friendship really blossomed into something great. Whether we were talking before and after softball games, going to the movies, or my personal favorite bowling (even though I always seemed to lose to everyone). There were many great memories made, many wonderful times had, a lot of laughter, a bit of pain (darn those splotcha games) but always cherishable. I am so grateful, to have known you, and to have gotten so close to you this past year. But more importantly I am glad you aren't suffering anymore, and that you are in a better place without disease, heartache, pain, and chaos. You were absoulutely amazing to every person who you crossed paths with and I thank the Lord for getting to cross paths with you. I'll never forget you.
Love, Katie
Love, Katie
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Just Breathe...
Thanks Anna Nalick I appreciate you not minding for me stealing your words of wisdom!
In this every growing hectic world full of chaos and despair and joy and laughter, I think we all just need to breathe a little. Without a doubt pain can seem unbearable, but the cool thing about that pain is that we don't have to deal with pain on our own. Breathing helps a little, but surrouding yourself with loved ones, and God's love is even more powerful. Though we have no way of controlling any situations, we can always recognize that everything will be amazing in the end of it all, due to God's unending love and grace.
God is amazing, he places people in our lives that make us who we are, and shapes us to be who we need to be. Today might be a day that will be remembered for a long time for many. But it's important to realize, that even though we might not realize it, that God has a plan, God uses hard circumstances for his kingdom. And more importantly, this world is not ours. We don't end life on this planet, so we shouldn't be in dispair when fellow believers are near death, or have left us on this earth, but rather we shall celebrate and be joyful. For ultimately in their passing, they are the lucky ones, they are away from the pain and suffering, and with God in heaven.
"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, girls,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe"
I am thankful for this passing year, and the people whom I came to love more than I can imagine. And I just think it's vital to realize that when it seems like situations are more than we can bear. That we just need to breathe, and give up our burdens. God is in control at all times, even when it seems like bad things are engulfing our life. God is in control. And he loves us, more than we could ever imagine, more than we can even love ourselves, or those closest to us. So breathe, because, God's in control, we though we may try with all of our might, are not.
God is amazing, he places people in our lives that make us who we are, and shapes us to be who we need to be. Today might be a day that will be remembered for a long time for many. But it's important to realize, that even though we might not realize it, that God has a plan, God uses hard circumstances for his kingdom. And more importantly, this world is not ours. We don't end life on this planet, so we shouldn't be in dispair when fellow believers are near death, or have left us on this earth, but rather we shall celebrate and be joyful. For ultimately in their passing, they are the lucky ones, they are away from the pain and suffering, and with God in heaven.
"Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, girls,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe"
I am thankful for this passing year, and the people whom I came to love more than I can imagine. And I just think it's vital to realize that when it seems like situations are more than we can bear. That we just need to breathe, and give up our burdens. God is in control at all times, even when it seems like bad things are engulfing our life. God is in control. And he loves us, more than we could ever imagine, more than we can even love ourselves, or those closest to us. So breathe, because, God's in control, we though we may try with all of our might, are not.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Welcome to the New Year
Welcome to the year 2011. What shall we come to expect of it all only God can truly tell. But for this new year, I want to embark on something new and different. To truly experience life, to hold on to every moment and not let a second pass by without realization. This year is to be different, to be beautiful to be new and bold and brilliant. I want to wish any and all who read this, or who just exist really a fantastic new year and wish you all the love in the world. There is a beauty to today, and that is it's only here for a mere 24 hours before it all goes away. I want to make sure that the year 2011 isn't just a year. But a year worth remembering every second, a year worth while. I have a desire to make life worth living to the fullest, and a desire to actually embark on this adventure of the new decade. Today is not a day to mourn, but to rejoice for it's the start of something new. Every brand new day has a chance to be something great, and remarkable. We just have to open our eyes, hearts, and hands and be willing to embrace it. As for me, I am saying, "Hello 2011, it's nice to meet ya. Come let's enjoy one another"
Happy new year.
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