So tonight, I did something that I never thought I could do. Did it with tears streaming down my face however I did it. I told people what all has been happening in my life lately out loud. Not just typing or texting but with words and volume. I told them all that has been happening and more, how I have felt like the scum bag on the earth and how God has held my hand through it all, and picked me up and held me. God is amazing. And the important thing to realize is that no matter what, God always cares.
Opening up is something we neglect as people a lot. Opening up can do a lot of things, but one of the reasons we often don't do that is because we become vulnerable to any and everything. And we often think that because we are telling people things that have hurt us in the past, or bring up crazy emotions in the present, that if we tell people that somehow it will only cause more pain for us. A pain that we can't handle.
But the beauty of it all, is the telling of our past pain, won't bring back the pain forever, and even more beautiful is that when we actually open up and share with people the actuality of the matter and the facts that we have survived the pain with God. The story because even more beautiful, because the truth of the matter is God is a loving God, and cares for our pain whether big or small, yes we may endure pain but sometimes because we go through certain things, we can help others.
God is love, and he loves each and everyone of us. God cares for our problems whether big or small. God is amazing and will be with us past, present and future.
I love you sooooo much, Katie!! Your experiences and opening up to us is helping me lots, even if you don't realize. I see all that God is doing in your life and He is molding you beautifully into an amazing young woman of God. I can't wait until God matches you up with another awesome young man of God because it'll be so beautiful. :) I wanted to share Psalm 27:13-14 with you because it's been helping me so much recently! Here it is: "I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!"
ReplyDeleteI love you too Hannah Pimpin!!!!! That verse is really good.
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your candor Katie, and will be praying for you! (And hope you have a terrific time with the pledging process... think of it this way, you're finally gonna have a sister times infinity! Yay!)
ReplyDeleteHaha definitely will have sisters times infinity if I survive all 6 weeks!
ReplyDeleteAnd I definitely appreciate the prayers!