V-Day

So in case you have been living under a rock or something the past couple of millenniums you know that tomorrow is the day where Halmark makes a gigantic profit, or something close to that affect. If for some reason you are still lost, tomorrow is Valentines Day. A day that is both loved and revered by people all across the world.

Personally, I have been fearing this Valentines Day like no other the past couple of months, because I know I am not going to get to spend it with a person that I have romantic interest in. And I must admit, I am absolutely terrified, of all the emotions that are going to be flooding back to me tomorrow. I had a kind of freak out moment in church this morning with the mere realization that tomorrow is V-Day. I am terrified to think that in the morning when I rise out of bed waves a tears and what not will start flowing and I won't be able to stop it.  Yet, at the same time, God is still here, and is watching my back.

So I must admit, the last two Valentines Days in my life weren't bad, I ended up somehow getting to spend it with guys that I liked, as either friends or a little more than friends (not to their knowledge though). But today during church when my mind was running around in little freak out circles, I couldn't help but realize, that this could be the first Valentines Day, where I just love God. Because how often do we as people start looking for "the one' or "our soul mate" and then when we think we find them, we put God on the back burner? I know I am guilty of this, and I know that I can't be the only one with this flaw.

For February 14th, 2011, I am not going to lie, I am not really looking forward to it, and am terrified. However I am also kind of excited to realize that God is more important than guys on the day where most girls forget that. So if you happen to think of either thing I mentioned in this paragraph, tomorrow act on it, whether praying for me not to have a break down mental moments, or to realize that without God there is no love, no Valentines Day, and no grace.