Are you afraid of the dark?

Yes, yes I am afraid of the dark. I honestly don't know how long I have been but anytime that I am in the dark outside especially I get terrified. There is something that is apart of me that just doesn't like the unknown and a big part of that comes out to play when I am having to go outside in the dark, or sometimes even worse drive in the dark.

The last time that I drove to HPU there was without a doubt an underlying terror in my entirety. Somehow I am just realizing that the terror aside from getting lost and my gps being a liar, stems from my eternal fear of the dark. The drive this time back to school was one with far less panic attacks and a more chillaxed enviornment all because of the light density outside of my window.

A big reason of why the dark is terrifying to me and a lot of other people is, you never really know what is surrounding you. The dark is less terrifying in your personal bedroom than it is at an acquaintances front lawn at 9 in the evening, because of the unfamiliarity. The darkness has an affect on me that is like no other in that idea. That if I am unfamiliar with the area just a tiny amount then the area will still have a uneasy feel and not just because I don't know the place, but because somehow in the dark anything is possible.

The fear of darkness can also be taken in the sense of being afraid of the unknown period. And I face that fear quite a bit. When I am having to realize that I truly don't know what is to come of me in the end of May when school lets out, I get a little spooked. When I just think about the future as in when I graduate the fear gets instilled even further, because I have no clue if I will even be a marketable employee in 2014! Who knows if educators will be needed more or even less than they are now? I surely don't! However with fear of the darkness comes the recognition that with darkness there is light. Even though I don't know what exactly God has in store for me, I know that he does have something in store. That I shouldn't be freaking about the unknown so much that I forget what I do know. That

I am afraid of the dark. The truth is though, I know the light and often times am to ignorant to realize that as long as I look to the light I have nothing to fear.